Advice: A positive change

Oh hi! How are you all doing?

I thought I would take some time to have a chat with you guys as I've been in a rut lately that I cant seem to get myself out of. I really enjoy writing on this blog as I do dream of myself as Carrie Bradshaw on a regular basis and although I'm not the best writer in the world I hope my words can help in some way.

So I started my blog in May 2014 as a hobby as I was so fed up of the same routines in my everyday life, that I needed a good distraction before I crumbled into a pit of shame, willowing in my own despair. Sounds depressing right...well it was. So I started writing about beauty, fashion and lifestyle and I was so good at writing three posts a week but then it started to feel wrong and I soon realised that my passions dont really rely in these areas as much as I have a passion for helping people.

I am/was such a positive person back in the day but over the last couple of years I have felt myself changing into that wingeing friend that no one wants to be around. And that just isn't ME. So this post is about the start of a big change, a positive and happy one. I want to become the BEST version of myself and live a life that I can be content with...

I think the start of this moaning self, began with my anxiety.

Back in 2010 I was involved in a car crash with my sister which resulted in a written off car and whip lash for me. We were super lucky that was all the damage, as it could have been horrific. But since that day I haven't felt the same. You could say June 2010 was life changing for me.

My whip lash symptoms started with the hope they would fade into nothing, I could get on with my life as normal and forget about the event that took place that day. To my annoyance they got worse. A whole lot worse. At first I couldn't walk on the streets without a fear a car was going to drive into me. I felt like I was going to have panic attacks all the time but I was good at reading my body and distracting the effects, THANK GOD! I couldn't bare the thought of having a breakdown while I was on an internship, in front of people I didn't know!! This panic slowly got better over time but I now can't get into a car without freaking out that I am going to get hit again. Its something I am dealing with myself as I refuse to go on any sort of medication to help me.

Now, I know there are lots of people in the world with much more serious problems, I'm not trying to get pitty or anything of the sorts. I'm just figuring out where it all went wrong and how I can make the change for the better. So since the whiplash I noticed my neck was going numb, thinking some physio would sort me right out I had a good few sessions to see if there was any progression. I noticed small differences every time I went but nothing major so I ended up stopping that treatment and life went on. I went through a stressful period in my life where I had left uni and was trying to get a job and in the mean time the numbness was getting worse.

I had glandular fever in between all of this too which led to a fear I might have ME but resulted in chronic fatigue. That was a much better result but I still get bouts of it now and it effected me a lot at the time. From then (2012) to now I have undergone a series of tests to find out where the numbness was coming from as over the years it has spread down my back, arms, legs and bum. It has even effected my sex life as the numbness has spread too far. Its a kind of numb where you can feel something is touching you but not completely, like when you get pins and needles. Its an absolute pain in the ass (no pun intended ha!) and no doctor has given me any answers so I have the fear this is always something I am going to live with. 

I dont think I would mind as much if it didnt also come with a lot of pain in the neck and lower back. I'm afraid I wont be able to headbang anymore guys..I'm sorry. So thats another thing I am going to have to complain to the doctors about as well as my flair ups of IBS (Irritable Bowl Syndrome). 

I guess over the last 5 years I have had to deal with a lot. I've had my accident, trying to graduate uni with Glandular Fever (which I had to get in third year), family issues; which I will go into another time and trying to get a job out of uni, that I am happy in.

I never realised how much this has all effected me until I'm writing this right now. For five years I have let the incidents of one day control me and I cant deny how sad that makes me feel. I'm happy I have noticed that I need to make a change and sharing this with you is the first step to putting it all behind me and becoming that happy positive person I once was...

And so to round this up. No, this wouldn't be how I would want to spend my life. My resolution this year was to be happy, something that sounds so simple but quite hard to achieve. This is going to be my number one goal from now on and a thought I'm going to keep in mind when I make decisions in the future.

I'm sorry for the rambley post but I wanted to be honest with you all. I have always been honest and caring in the past and I have realised that talking about whats in your mind is the best kind of therapy to move on from whats stopping you being yourself. Lets share a journey of happiness together and have an amazing happiness party at the other end where we can say goodbye to the negative and hello to the positives.

I have been stuck in a rut for so long with this blog and what I want it to be, but now I have realised....

I want to help people. Give tips on happiness and to feel great and get motivated to really live your life the way you want. Say no to who and whatever is holding you back and yes to a better you. 

I hope this has been helpful in some way, do comment with your stories and rambles and lets create a community where we can help each other change them into positives. 

Lots of love 

Khrissie x

KhrissieLoves: Nics Picks

Real Techniques: 'Nic's Collection' £29.99

Ive been loving make up brushes for quite a while now. I find it crazy that I never used to use them back in the day, mainly because they weren't very good. The bristles came out onto my face as soon as they touched my skin and a flawless finish seemed a thing of mystery.

Real Techiques were the first brand I tried that really amazed me, firstly because of how soft they were. This was back when bloggers such as Llymlrs and Zoella were bragging about them in most of their videos, making me head straight to Boots as soon as I had the chance to pick them up myself. My first brush I brought was actually the stippling brush as I wanted to test one of them first before I invested in more, which ended in a loving friendship and from then on my collection grew.

I've seen Nic's Picks collection around for a while now but never thought about actually buying them for some reason. I was on Feel Unique one day, in a spendy mood and decided to go for it! I received them in their lovely packaging a few days later to be wowed with how soft they were. As soon as I had the chance, I put them to the test as I couldn't wait to see what the results would be. Not to my surprise, they were amazing!

I love how in this collection you get three brushes for your eyes and two for your face which works out really cost effective as those mac blending brushes can be quite costly on their own and these do just as good a job.

Sam and Nic are so amazing at makeup and I love their beauty channel! If you haven't seen them in action, go check them out, your going to be addicted. You can buy Nics Picks here and all their other brushes which are available here

Hope you have had a lovely weekend
Love Khrissie x

No7 Match Made in Heaven

Hello lovlies!

Happy Friday! I'm so happy to be back blogging, it was horrible not being able to blog with moving out, staying at our friends and having everything packed in boxes. I had taken pictures of stuff in advance but with no internet and no time to sort out the pictures I couldn't see a way around it. Internet has been installed and I'm half moved in so all is right with the world.

So a little while ago No7 launched the Match Made Lipstick Service which is similar to their Match Made Foundation service but it for lipstick instead, which is great as choosing the right lipstick for your skin tone is something we can all struggle with. Ximena from Deseo Beauty kindly invited me and Jough from Jough Bloggs to try out the service on the launch date to see what we thought.

We managed to pop in on our lunch break and Ximena welcomed us with her lovely smile and she started to talk us through the different lipsticks that were available and how the process worked. First of all you get the Match Maker machine pressed onto a clean area of your skin on each side of your face so it can read the colour pigment of your skin colour. 

This will tell you the colour match of your Foundation, Joughs was Calico which is the lightest of the shades, where I was Cool Vanilla which is one up from that. Ximena then asked us what kind of shade we wanted from a huge selection of deep red to coral. She worked this through the machine as it gives you more option on how to choose a colour this way. We also got given a card with all the shades on it from the Moisture Drench and Stay Perfect lines, which was handy to have so you can keep it in your bag with you so you can remember your perfect shade. 

Ximena then picked out the shades for us to try on as we were unsure what we wanted. We both got carried away and ended up trying about 5 each as we were having so much fun trying on lipsticks and being girly! Saying this, there are 14 shades in the ranges that will suit your skin tone, so being a beauty addict you can understand that I wanted everything, right? Just look how pretty they all are..

Look how amazing Jough looks with that lip colour on! It looks gorgeous. It was nice to see how much of a buzz it was attracting with numerous girls coming over to the counter to find out about the hype. I can't think of anything better than playing with makeup with your girlfriends. Here is a snap of two beauty addicts I spotted trying on every colour in the range, they were just as happy as we were with the outcome. 

I ended up settling for Soft Cherry. A lovely bright coral red which suits my skin tone perfectly. Its one of those everyday shades which adds that touch of glam when your in the office to give you a boost of moral when you need it most. I love it! and now I need more! The formulas of these lipsticks are amazing, so much so that Jough has been wearing hers nearly everyday since and even quoted that it was a the best lipstick she has ever worn *whispers* (better than MAC!)

So next time you pop into Boots...(hello weekend!) pop to the No7 counter and have a go! Its so much fun and it only takes 5 minutes to see what shade you are. No more worrying about skin tone colours and all that malarky, just go have some fun! Oh and if your near Bishopsgate pop into that one as thats where Ximena works and she was wonderful with us...thank you girl!

No7 Lipstick £9.95*

I'm back to blogging and it feels good!

Hope you've all been well?

Khrissie x