Advice: A positive change

Oh hi! How are you all doing?

I thought I would take some time to have a chat with you guys as I've been in a rut lately that I cant seem to get myself out of. I really enjoy writing on this blog as I do dream of myself as Carrie Bradshaw on a regular basis and although I'm not the best writer in the world I hope my words can help in some way.

So I started my blog in May 2014 as a hobby as I was so fed up of the same routines in my everyday life, that I needed a good distraction before I crumbled into a pit of shame, willowing in my own despair. Sounds depressing right...well it was. So I started writing about beauty, fashion and lifestyle and I was so good at writing three posts a week but then it started to feel wrong and I soon realised that my passions dont really rely in these areas as much as I have a passion for helping people.

I am/was such a positive person back in the day but over the last couple of years I have felt myself changing into that wingeing friend that no one wants to be around. And that just isn't ME. So this post is about the start of a big change, a positive and happy one. I want to become the BEST version of myself and live a life that I can be content with...

I think the start of this moaning self, began with my anxiety.

Back in 2010 I was involved in a car crash with my sister which resulted in a written off car and whip lash for me. We were super lucky that was all the damage, as it could have been horrific. But since that day I haven't felt the same. You could say June 2010 was life changing for me.

My whip lash symptoms started with the hope they would fade into nothing, I could get on with my life as normal and forget about the event that took place that day. To my annoyance they got worse. A whole lot worse. At first I couldn't walk on the streets without a fear a car was going to drive into me. I felt like I was going to have panic attacks all the time but I was good at reading my body and distracting the effects, THANK GOD! I couldn't bare the thought of having a breakdown while I was on an internship, in front of people I didn't know!! This panic slowly got better over time but I now can't get into a car without freaking out that I am going to get hit again. Its something I am dealing with myself as I refuse to go on any sort of medication to help me.

Now, I know there are lots of people in the world with much more serious problems, I'm not trying to get pitty or anything of the sorts. I'm just figuring out where it all went wrong and how I can make the change for the better. So since the whiplash I noticed my neck was going numb, thinking some physio would sort me right out I had a good few sessions to see if there was any progression. I noticed small differences every time I went but nothing major so I ended up stopping that treatment and life went on. I went through a stressful period in my life where I had left uni and was trying to get a job and in the mean time the numbness was getting worse.

I had glandular fever in between all of this too which led to a fear I might have ME but resulted in chronic fatigue. That was a much better result but I still get bouts of it now and it effected me a lot at the time. From then (2012) to now I have undergone a series of tests to find out where the numbness was coming from as over the years it has spread down my back, arms, legs and bum. It has even effected my sex life as the numbness has spread too far. Its a kind of numb where you can feel something is touching you but not completely, like when you get pins and needles. Its an absolute pain in the ass (no pun intended ha!) and no doctor has given me any answers so I have the fear this is always something I am going to live with. 

I dont think I would mind as much if it didnt also come with a lot of pain in the neck and lower back. I'm afraid I wont be able to headbang anymore guys..I'm sorry. So thats another thing I am going to have to complain to the doctors about as well as my flair ups of IBS (Irritable Bowl Syndrome). 

I guess over the last 5 years I have had to deal with a lot. I've had my accident, trying to graduate uni with Glandular Fever (which I had to get in third year), family issues; which I will go into another time and trying to get a job out of uni, that I am happy in.

I never realised how much this has all effected me until I'm writing this right now. For five years I have let the incidents of one day control me and I cant deny how sad that makes me feel. I'm happy I have noticed that I need to make a change and sharing this with you is the first step to putting it all behind me and becoming that happy positive person I once was...

And so to round this up. No, this wouldn't be how I would want to spend my life. My resolution this year was to be happy, something that sounds so simple but quite hard to achieve. This is going to be my number one goal from now on and a thought I'm going to keep in mind when I make decisions in the future.

I'm sorry for the rambley post but I wanted to be honest with you all. I have always been honest and caring in the past and I have realised that talking about whats in your mind is the best kind of therapy to move on from whats stopping you being yourself. Lets share a journey of happiness together and have an amazing happiness party at the other end where we can say goodbye to the negative and hello to the positives.

I have been stuck in a rut for so long with this blog and what I want it to be, but now I have realised....

I want to help people. Give tips on happiness and to feel great and get motivated to really live your life the way you want. Say no to who and whatever is holding you back and yes to a better you. 

I hope this has been helpful in some way, do comment with your stories and rambles and lets create a community where we can help each other change them into positives. 

Lots of love 

Khrissie x

KhrissieLoves: Nics Picks

Real Techniques: 'Nic's Collection' £29.99

Ive been loving make up brushes for quite a while now. I find it crazy that I never used to use them back in the day, mainly because they weren't very good. The bristles came out onto my face as soon as they touched my skin and a flawless finish seemed a thing of mystery.

Real Techiques were the first brand I tried that really amazed me, firstly because of how soft they were. This was back when bloggers such as Llymlrs and Zoella were bragging about them in most of their videos, making me head straight to Boots as soon as I had the chance to pick them up myself. My first brush I brought was actually the stippling brush as I wanted to test one of them first before I invested in more, which ended in a loving friendship and from then on my collection grew.

I've seen Nic's Picks collection around for a while now but never thought about actually buying them for some reason. I was on Feel Unique one day, in a spendy mood and decided to go for it! I received them in their lovely packaging a few days later to be wowed with how soft they were. As soon as I had the chance, I put them to the test as I couldn't wait to see what the results would be. Not to my surprise, they were amazing!

I love how in this collection you get three brushes for your eyes and two for your face which works out really cost effective as those mac blending brushes can be quite costly on their own and these do just as good a job.

Sam and Nic are so amazing at makeup and I love their beauty channel! If you haven't seen them in action, go check them out, your going to be addicted. You can buy Nics Picks here and all their other brushes which are available here

Hope you have had a lovely weekend
Love Khrissie x

#OOTD | Cosy & Casual

Jumper & Jeans / H&M  Shoes / Topshop  Necklace / New Look

Wow hello there middle of September! What a whirlwind you have been.

I have been so busy this month I can not think straight for the life of me. I feel sick to the stomach with all I have to do and my head is a complete blur! Sorting out moving, organising Paris, packing my life away and dealing with life issues has all been too much. I've been trying so hard to get posts done ahead of time but last weekend, this weekend and the one after are all hectic! So I have been throwing on my trusty jeans and jumper combo with my favourite necklace so I can feel half put together while I sort my life out. 

I'm a little off the radar at the moment but once I move in at the end of this month I can get back into the full swing of blogging as I have not got any time right now. Paris was amazing though! Beyonce was beyond brilliant and I nearly cried at the emotion of it all. I love Paris a lot, but more on that later. I need sleep so I can actually do my job at work rather than daydreaming all day! opps!

Catch you soon

Have a lovely week

Khrissie x

Review | Thea Organic Skincare

I received these samples of Thea Face Renew Cleanser and Moisturiser a little while ago and was really intrigued to try them as I have been wanting to get more onto organic and natural products. I mainly wanted to see if they were any better than standard products that have lots of nasty ingredients in them. With organic products comes a bigger price tag but they say if you can spend £40 on a pair of shoes, you should do the same for skincare as its a lot better to invest in your skin than anything else, especially as good skin is the basis of good makeup.

First up in my skin routine was the cleanser, now personally I don't like cream cleansers as I've got so used to my micellar waters, but I gave it a go non the less. I found I had to use quite a lot of the product to take all my makeup off but using it as a second cleanse worked really well as it got any excess product off that I may have missed. I loved how it left skin feeling super clean afterwards! I also tried this by applying it using a muslin cloth, which worked a lot better for me.

It had a section on how to use it on the website but I find it's better to find your own personal way to begin with, but in this case using a damp cotton pad or muslin cloth was the best method.

Brightening Fruit Enzyme Cleanser 100ml £29.95*

This cleanser is made from lots of great ingredients like Aloe Juice, Green Tea, mango butter and lemon and orange oils. If you don't like scented products this won't be for you as it is heavily scented with strong citrus notes, which I personally love! I enjoyed applying the cleanser as the smell was gorgeous, not as refreshing as some cleansers I have used so I would keep this for my evening routine. After using it for a few weeks my skin does look brighter and slightly more plump.

Brightening Fruit Enzyme Moisturiser 100ml £29.95*

Next up is the Face Renew Moisturiser. Now I love this compared to the cleanser as this is a really light formula, which is much more suited to my oily skin. The smell wasn't as amazing but I didn't mind so much. This is also made of the same kind of ingredients as the cleanser so if I was to buy the full version I would definitely head for the moisturiser as it gives me the same results being that the ingredients are doing all the hard work. 

You can buy a sample of the moisturiser for £8.95 if you wanted to give this brand a go and your into natural and organic products. They also have other ranges for different skin types which you can choose from. Overall I'm quite satisfied with the results. You always expect more when the products are organic but it may just be that natural ingredients that are just doing more good for your skin in general rather than a quick fix that a lot of the animal tested brands give you. 

I would like to test some more of their products from the different ranges as thats where I have my skin problems, especially interested in the rosehip and white tea mask for sensitive skin

Is there anything you are interested in you would like me to try?

All products are paraben and cruelty free and are also vegan friendly. 

Khrissie x

Week 3: The Great Blogger Bake Off

Khrissie x

*This is Paul Hollywoods recipe which I only thought was fitting. I've never baked bread before so I used a bread maker and added the ingredients in the order as stated in the recipe. This is the proper way to do it.